I Love Him...But Only On My Own...

On My Own - Eponine (Les Miserables)

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'til morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way
I close my eyes 
And he has found me

In the rain 
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights
Are misty in the river
In the darkness
The trees are full of starlight
And all I is see
Is him and me
Forever and forever

And I know
It's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself
And not to him
And although
I know that he is blind
Still I say
"There's a way for us!"

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare
And everywhere the streets
Are full of strangers

I love him
But everyday I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
The world is full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

Somehow, at the end of this song, in my head, it just wants to segue to "A Heart Full of Love" immediately. Thoughts of Z seems to just cause these 2 Les Miz songs to follow each other.

You are Always on My Mind

Have been missing him since I left SG to come back to BNE. Everytime I spent time with him this trip back, it was always filled with laughs and just...good times. Really miss hanging out with him! Dammit. Just really glad that I spent my last night in SG with him. Wonder when we'll see each other again...